Sunday 13 September 2009

browsing the pages of my life

...is technically the same as browsing through the pages of my blog. because i don't bother munching on my tongue. aha. the only difference between my blog and my journals is that i occasionally write mundane things in my journals. and some, well, other things. let's not major on the minor. =P

this was when i wrote about the footstool players' take on the elliots. i still maintain my high standards *ahem*, but i give compliments more easily now.

i write less condensed articles about events now. i hope *gulp*. here's when i wrote about the OA trip.

here's where i wondered if i could be an honest lawyer. as of 13 september 2009, i maintain my resolve to strive towards that end.

birthday surprise post. i still occasionally surprise people on their birthdays. though not on such a huge scale nemore. did one for chelsea and ah will in july though. and oh ya, i still jump at people from behind the door. muahaha. no, not childish.

encouragement posts. i have given up doing so for the very simple reason that it is more impactful to encourage a person personally and face-to-face. and for the other very simple reason that not everyone can read long articles.

destiny. i don't believe the future changes all the time, as alleged in PUSH. but it's a natural human tendency to label the future as such when things don't happen according to our expectations. so, humanly speaking, my future seems like it's changing all the time.

about teaching the children's hour and the stuff i do along the away. i don't teach children anymore. ken ken has also stopped asking me for help with his math. i wonder why. i am still as scatter-brained, and my level of Hokkien has not improved by much except i can now say "i don't know how to hear" in Hokkien. and i have talked more to chai hoe, but not by much.

over-planning habit. which i have managed to conquer, but i am now tilting towards the other end, which is laziness and over-spontaneity so help me God. on a brighter note, i am still very much concerned about helping others with their English. now, if only someone would help me with my Mandarin.

exacting revenge on marcus in badminton. which i never did. incapable means incapable. hah.

christmas musical. i am still a fan of keeping secrets, then bringing them into the open in full, glorious blasts. it's like when seoks and i tip-toed into the school hall and then the teacher just called our names like he didn't notice we were trying to hide. hah.

my life as a pianist. would be taken to have ceased, if not for the occasional returns to malacca. i once thought i would never be identified as something else other than a pianist. i was wrong.

disappointments. i have learned that i won't have so much to forgive if i could just be less judgmental.

inferiority complex. i still feel inferior. a lot. but i have learned that just as i find people to be more than what they are when i know them better, i also find people to be less than what they are. in a good way. i feel more comfortable around people now. mostly.




pjgh. relationship with the youth has not developed as i'd hoped. i'm now more comfortable with pjgh-ians, but not as much as i'd like. but, as beng hui said, it's like this in bigger churches. as times goes by, i see more and more differences between mgc and pjgh, and i realize that it can't be helped. i shouldn't expect similiar things from different things. maybe this thought will make things better. but i have made friends in pjgh, friends i treasure (that law-students critic obviously one of them. aha.). i maintain my resolve to work towards a closer relationship with them.

people. i have learned that it is not easy to be a human in trouble and that things are blown out of proportion when people are sinking. i have gained more patience in listening to others and in accepting that they sometimes don't listen. but. people still don't listen. hahahaha. good thing i accept d. =P

perception of law students. i maintain that we don't have to talk much. but we should have an adequate level of english. period.

rhyming skills. i am still unable to rhyme.

piang. yes, i am still unable to elaborately express my disappointment with people i'm close to. piang would still suffice for now.


i have changed. not by much in the bad things, and by much in the good things, i hope.

oh ya.

studying. i didn't get down to studying back then. i am still very much a procrastinator. hah.


going out for dinner.

remember my family law test and pray for me. three questions to answer in one hour.

thanks.

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