"Hey, Tse Hwei! Li Ern here. Can you play background music for the Easter play?"
to be honest, i was quite sedih the first day i went for practice. here's why:
#1 Li Ern: "Full practice on Monday, 9am. (public holiday) Cannot go back."
#2 Everyone else had been practicing together for 3 weeks.
#3 I can't improvise background music. I really can't. Creativity = Zero.
#4 To my shame, I confess I haven't been spending enough time with PKV-ians. My presence during Friday's PKV meetings are equivalent to a pew-warmer on Sunday.
should it be 'here are why'? since there're more than one 'why's.
as i said, i was quite sedih that first day. which was actually just yesterday. but watching them praise the Lord so sincerely helped a lot. PLUS the drama
ah ya. God decided to remind me of how bad a conversationalist i am. there were so many instances where a simple phrase could've led to a few more lines of conversation, and i missed them all. i can only recall one right now but it should suffice:
"i like looking at the stars. stars are nice."
*looks at me expectantly*
"...hm."
*looks at me expectantly*
"...hm."
it'll pain you to know that i still don't know what i should've said to have those few more lines of conversation. it's like what ben button said:
our lives are defined by opportunities.
even the ones we miss.
even the ones we miss.
i could give you a long list of what i think the definition of my life is due to my lack of conversational skills, but that would be a complete waste of your time. plus my line of vision's starting to narrow. it's 1.45am.
anyway, i felt better at today's practice. i felt i could be quietly present more naturally. like when you're with your best friend and you can both do your own thing without talking to each other unless you want to. people don't always have to talk to be comfortable with one another. sometimes silence is the best way to see if you enjoy each other's company.
i enjoyed silently watching the pkv-ians today. it was odd to know i'd missed watching so many people in pkv meetings. if you don't get to know certain people, you just miss out on what could've been a huge chunk of your life, i guess.
no strength to arrange photos, so i'm chucking them here randomly and without proper alignment. bwahaha:
george: "blogger!"p/s: this is the first time i don't mind not justifying the post.
p/ss: i didn't know jason could act. =P
2 comments:
Hmmm...
Just for ur infomation, NOT everyone else had been practicing together for 3 weeks.
Some were practicing in thier groups and some haven't even gotten their script till this week. Coz the scripts were still in "fragments" somewhere in Kee Aun's head.
Well, at least u got ur chance now to spend time with "the PKV-ians"...
eh wait...actually, u are a PKV-ian too...u're part of us wei...in fact u're a future leader one way or another..
I wasn't too involved myself till I got into the committee during my first year.
We know you'll do ur best despite u thinking u are not so creative...
If you choose to serve at ur church,then do so. But I believe there's only one chance to be part of a CF in campus. So, do spend more time with ur fellow PKV-ians... :)
Ahahaha that "hmmm" sounded exactly like the "hmmm"s you do in the play. XD
Izzit ar? Yay then. Haha. Yeah, the last scene is still fragmented in Kee Aun's head too. Hm hm.
I don't think I'm not creative. I know so. Ahaha. But yeah, I'll do my best with whatever creative thing Li Ern and Kee Aun come up with. ^_^" (public: you should say you'll try to be more creative. -_-!)
Ya, will try to be less invisible during Friday meetings. =D
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