first day of fragments.

the famous hair clip everyone thought was a joystick.

kinda makes the keyboard look like the dashboard of an alien spaceship.

the keyboard's signal was in fragments. lol.

anyway, it's fixed today.

it's ok. i gained a lot from last night's experience with the keyboard.


1. i put my smiling face to good use.

i.e. (a) *smile smile smile* "clarence, keyboard no sound."
i.e. (b) "smile smile smile* "kee aun, what shall i do now?"
i.e. (c) clarence: "tse hwei, why the keyboard so soft wan?" *smile smile smile* "don't know."


2. i learned some technical stuff.

the keyboard was sending out a low signal, which made it incompatible with the signal that the system was sending out. the signal was too hot, hence the feedback. should have used some padding for the keyboard. plus it was sharing the power source with the projector and laptop. don't ever add things to what's already there. if you do, conduct a sound test and check it out first. also, we need a compressor because it's dangerous when the actors shout into the mics.

my experience with my rambling pengajian am teacher has helped a lot. i can be blur without looking like i didn't understand most of what that sound system uncle said.


3. i discovered how much i love the dark.

i'm like my hero - batman! we're so compatible! yay! now, if only he was real.


4. i rediscovered the joy of working with people i can call my brothers and sisters.

i was very affected when the lawnite assistant head of the performance bureau yelled at me to hurry up to the front for my turn to perform. especially since i'd been delayed because i was helping a guest with his parking coupon problem. ah, i know she was stressed out. but. like jason says in the play, she didn't have to shout. i don't shout when i'm stressed. in fact, i do the opposite. i clam up real good. but then that's me. ah. whatever. different people different behaviour, i suppose.

also, seniority is a huge thing in the faculty, and i can't understand why. i understand respect, but i refuse to accept forced authority. law faculty-ians complain about everything, demand every right, pick little faults to expound on, treat seniority as a position instead of a condition.

as with the other pkvians, jen hann doesn't feel@act like a senior at all.

i've seen backstabbings going on even among the lawnite committee. and i've had enough. i commented that i prefer working on the easter production to working on lawnite. chelsea asked why. i said all of the above.

plus the easter production is to honour God and to encourage one another.

chelsea said the faculty projects could help us gain experience, build some rapport with the seniors there's that word again, and get to know lawyers and corporate individuals (networking).

i replied, "then what?" i'm not even gonna say 'there's more to life than networking' cuz it's just plain ridiculous.

is that all there is to it? what's the point of all these projects? who, among those involved in these projects, can honestly disagree that the most part of the experience they gain is how to deal with backstabbers?

rachel: "hey, what was wrong with the keyboard?"
me: *starts long recitation of the uncle's narration*
rachel: *stops me halfway and does the huggy thing* "it's ok. you did good."

see the difference?

george, rachel, divya
after posing for my cameraphone: "tse hwei, why must you always take pictures!"

5. i realized i was zalim.

no, not as in cruel. zalim is a term in islamic law concerning the faith ,which means "not putting something in the right place". it wasn't until the keyboard went soundless that i realized that my heart wasn't in the right place. it shouldn't have been so important for me to want to play. so what if i couldn't play? the easter play is not about me. it's not a platform for me to show off on the keyboard. i think God did it again. He always pulls this sort of thing. maybe i knew. maybe that's why i wasn't worried at all after the first few soundlessness. i left the keyboard, sat down on my *reserved* bangga! seat and watched the play with a smile.


but still.

i hope to play something significant on the keyboard tonight.

ahahaha.

unlike some people, i only have a small cameraphone.
so if you look closely, you'll see i pieced two pictures together.