The Day I Got Myself Into Another Deal. And Lost. As Usual.

Once upon a time...

Neh.



I'm writing a post - a longggggggggggggg post - specially for Elena.

Why?

Well, here's what happened: I was...



Neh.




Dowan tell! Tsk! Ask me personally if you want to know. (small voice: it's too embarrasing...)

Anyways. This is the story of...

How I Met Elena

Neh. Lousy start. (Public: Just get on with it!)

Oklah, oklah. Stick with that la.

Again: This is the story of...

How I Met Elena

*seriously*

Full Name : Elena Lee Yu Shen
Age : 18
DOB : 24 January 1990 (sorry I didn't wish you a blessed birthday =P)
POB : Selangor
Occupation : Full-time Kulat & Moss
Field : She doesn't work in the field. Mostly among stones and longkangs.
Education Centre : The Centre Of All Moss-Making. Where The Best Moss Gather.

Ok.

First met Elena during one of the DMSJ's in the previous years. I didn't know I met her though. I only really got to talk to her when she came down to Malacca on a Residential Bible School (RBS) mission trip to MGC.

Fun fact : Elena is short fun-sized.

Sorry. Couldn't resist. =D

I didn't really talk to the RBS students with the intention to really get to know them, because I was struggling enough with even talking to them as it was. But I did get to know some stuff about Elena, like...

• . everyone abandoned her and refused to pick up the phone when she tried calling home

• . she wants to go into nursing

• . she likes (and is good at) drama

• . she had (or has) a journal which she drew all sorts of decorative stuff on top and realized too late that she'd drawn them upside down

• . she's a real good poser (even when she doesn't try XD)

• . she blogs a lot (she said so)

(is it long enough yet? i heard making lists always works! *clicks preview* =P)


Anyway~

After RBS, I found out a little more about her through MSN. The less personal things would be like how she owns her very own SPCA and is willing to berdrama on air to get a free meal and movie. =P

To be a little more serious...

She's just a girl, living in her own world of confusion and imagination. With many hidden secrets, she fails to keep up with her own standards at times, which sometimes also leads to unpredictable mood swings. She gets easily disappointed with herself though she doesn't show it, yet she knows that, despite all the failures she goes through, there's a Friend there to love her, and to hold her hand again, guiding her to the right path. She loves to write, speaks her mind when she wants to, but most of the time, she'll just shut up so that she won't offend anyone. She enjoys local music, and local movies more than you can ever think. Her primary interest would be drama, and dreams of acting in the actor's studio one fine day. She loves making friends though at times she may be a lil shy. She's one girl, you won't wanna know if you don't have an open mind. and yea, introducing, the blogger herself.

That last line was a giveaway. Ish. That was taken from her blog. =)

Hey, how else to know a person than by reading what she says about herself, right?

Like when she says she has many hidden secrets, you know that talking to her will never get old. Because there'll always be a secret to dig out. Mua-ha-ha.

No lah.

Here's where hwei gets serious. Seriously.

I've chatted with you more than a couple of times (just an expression i use when i know it's more than two but don't know exactly less than what - dots. ignore this bracket.), and I've met people who make me think - this person's like me, in a way or hey, i do that too.

But sometimes, I don't need to think. Like when you share things that I've gone through myself, and when you say things that I know I would say. Or used to say. And it's gone to that extent that I find myself asking: Oh dear. Am I that old?

Cuz I seem to have experienced the things you're going through. ^_^"

Not all of them. But enough to make me feel that way.

And, dear Elena, I just want you to know that though you will never fully get over it in a very short time, you will meet someone who's worth all that getting over. (hint: d*ahem*l XD) Maybe not someone who can replace the other one, but someone who will help your eyes see again - that there's light outside that shadow.

There's a part of you that's longing to be shared with the world. Like how you reply when I ask why I can't sabotage you if you sabotage me if the post's too short:

cuz...... you're typing the post, and if it's short.... then I sabo you... you're not suppose to sabo me back.. because you already did.

...Gleefully add:

it has to be reasonably long....

...And then let in a little of that good nature:

dont need to write one book.

You may never learn from that "mistake" you made, but there will be courage to try again. And while you set about waiting for that moment to try again, let the world see more of that part of you. You wouldn't be another-person-and-not-Elena-anymore if you do. Just see it as being a better you.

It is nicer to smile than to hold it back. That's all a frown is, isn't it? The holding back of a smile. But it's much sweeter when you really mean it when you smile.



So... hold back that smile if you don't feel like it. But then... look around for reasons to smile everyday. Sure, they don't quite make up for that one thing you wish was there to make you smile, but... just think of it as saving your broadest smile for the best day.



(wah optimistic)

Don't think I'm trying so hard to relate to you when I say that I was the worst pessimist in the world 2 years ago. Cuz I was.

Wouldn't say that I suddenly rediscovered my love for God along the way and then was transformed and found direction in my life etc. It was a little by little thing. So little that I hardly realized I've made it this far. Write this down in your journal or post it on your blog. See if you'll be writing the same thing to someone else 2 years later. =)

-Sidetrack-

It's a really fun thing to do. Tried it when I read about it in Little Women. Ever wondered why I always seem excited and curious? =D

-End of sidetrack-

Not saying this is all just a phase you're going through and you'll get over it etc. Because that would just make everything meaningless right now. Like, God, can't I just skip to the get-over-it part?

It's not like that. It's just that God decided to let both of us have MSN accounts and then meet up to exchange MSNs (not technically, cuz that would be plain wrong and com pros would kill me) so that we could exchange stories we could both relate to. I really wish an older girl had been there to tell me all this. And I hope I can be that older girl to you. (altho that old word makes me wince)

Some Elena stories I may not be able to relate to. Like how __ __ __ __ from you. And some other stories in that soul I haven't started reading yet. Some of what happen to you I may never relate to, but I can always relate to being sad, angry, sometimes both at the same time... And even sometimes not knowing which one you're feeling.

That verse about David's cup overflowing always comes to mind.

We're different people, but I'll fill your cup with my joy and you'll fill mine with yours and we'll happily bless each other's lives! =D

Because you're not Tse Hwei and I'm not Elena, you might not share my optimism (which sometimes fizzles out when i am deeply troubled). But even if I see the glass as half-full and you see it as half-empty, who cares? When we fill it up, it's gonna be both getting fuller and getting less empty right? (wah nice line, remember i wrote it when it makes it to hollywood)

Finally...

Update your blog more la.

(Public: Anti-climax!)

Hmm. Long enough, I think. =P

The end!


Oh ya, I still owe you a riddle for July.

Is that a better ending?

=P