ku mahu.

Ku mahu cinta Yesus selamanya
Ku mahu cinta Yesus selamanya
Meskipun badai silih berganti dalam hidupku
Ku tetap cinta Yesus selamanya

Ya Abba Bapa, ini aku anak-Mu,
Layakkanlah seluruh hidupku,
Ya Abba Bapa, ini aku anak-Mu,
Pakailah sesuai dengan rencana-Mu.

it's the saddest thing,

how people leave Christ when they need Him most.

i was trying to decide between reading Mark and the Psalms for my Quiet Time series.

because i heard that nothing helps the soul more than poetical passages.

then i looked at the first chapter of Mark.

The beginning of the gospel about Jesus Christ, the Son of God.

and i decided i'd read Mark.

i need to know Christ all over again.

because it's the saddest thing,

how people leave Christ when they need Him most.

and here -

a portion of what i take to be the English equivalent of the song above:

Through the storm I will hold on, Lord
And by faith I will walk on, Lord
Then I’ll see beyond my Calvary one day
And I will be complete in You.

besides "pedagogic"

...I also discussed some serious stuff with Amreeta in the library, i.e. the title of my project paper. To cut a long story short, this is the fruit of our labour:

Local Bloggerina: "Will I Get Caught If I Blog?"

Also, we discovered that we can talk like a good Italian speaking bad English, but not like a good Italian speaking Italian. 

A day of discoveries. Whee~

*edit*

Amreeta 

Or you could just name your project paper: "I Write, My Blog Speaks".

Hm. 

holiday-schmoliday.

-Me-

from choo soon.

"Never, never, never, never give up. Because God never gives up. 

What I've learned is

that I can only give up when God gives up on me and my family."

Slightly paraphrased, but his spirit and heart are preserved.


People seem to say great things when they need to.
I should take note of everything, then write a book one day.

My acknowledgments section will be, like, 5 pages long.

Ahaha.

if i had to write an essay now.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 

1 Corinthians 13:4-7.

Love is, love is.

Is love a thing, a decision, an emotion, or a person?

If love were a thing, it would not be able to rejoice.

If love were a decision, it would not be able to be angered.

If love were an emotion, it would not be able to protect.

If love were a person...

If love were a person...

There is no such person.

The Bible also says that God is love. (1 John 4:8) 

Is love, then, a standard unachievable by none but One?

If so, none of us are able to love. What then, do we mean when we tell each other, "I love you"? When man and woman stand before the altar, do they say, "I hereby vow to achieve the unattainable"?

Yesterday, I asked God if there is a painless love.

But without pain and hurt, there would be no need for love to be kind, or to keep no record of wrongs, or to persevere.

Aye, I do believe in love. It would be stupid of me to not believe in love. Because love, in its fullness, is perfect. It is we, man, who are unable to measure up to love's standards. 

I like how The Message interpreted verse seven of 1 Corinthian 13:

Love trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end. 

If imperfect beings could try for an imperfect love, this would be the imperfect love I would choose to have.


Abba Bapa, 
Apa yang  kelihatan mustahil bagiku,
Itu sangat mungkin bagi-Mu.
Anak-Mu tetap percaya. 

from sieh jin.

"The shadow proves the sunshine"

It's a song by Switchfoot, but it works well as a gentle reminder.

Thanks. =)

prayer heals.

The oceans may rise,
and the thunders may roar,
but as I stay with His arms,
I find myself able to soar.


Still my Constant in the midst of unknowns,
and still, I believe.

Thank You for the two who came to pray.

the single constant.

It is only when you're in a swirl of unknowns that you look for a constant.

I have looked, and I have found only one.

This constant gives sense to everything.

The Constant in the midst of unknowns.

Can I give You this new name?


Ya, Tuhanku.
Anak-Mu masih percaya.

Mujizat itu nyata.

The song from Camp Cameron 2010 that made me think, doubt, cry, smile, praise, frown, and worship. It was with me for the three weeks of camp and the 13 days afterward.

Tiada batas kuasa-Mu, Tuhan

Semua dapat Kau lakukan

Apa yang kelihatan mustahil bagiku

Itu sangat mungkin bagi-Mu

Disaatku tak berdaya

Kuasa-Mu yang sempurna

Ketika ku percaya

Mujizat itu nyata

Bukan karna kekuatan

Namun roh-Mu, ya Tuhan

Ketika ku berdoa

Mujizat itu nyata.

There're no limits to Your power, O God

You can do everything

That which seems impossible to me

Is all too possible for You.

When I am weak

Your power is perfect

When I believe

Miracles happen

Not by strength

But by Your spirit, O God

When I pray

Miracles happen.

[English translation]

It's when you truly need a miracle that you find yourself asking if miracles can happen.

All my life, I never doubted God, always believed He knew best.

One thing I learned in camp was to doubt.

But in doubting, I also learned to truly believe.

Anak-Mu menantikan mujizat-Mu, Tuhan.

Why we try.

You were born into this family without you saying you wanted to, and you're stuck with it.

You should try to resolve whatever issues you have with your family for that reason alone.

If you don't, it's okay. Like Gramps Michael said: You won't go to hell. You'll just go through hell.

The bottom-line is:

You're stuck with your family. Period.

But you choose your spouse. 

You fell in love somehow, then you decided to get married. 

To love or not to love - we say that is the question. Because with your spouse, you made a choice.

I was thinking about this the other day, and I wondered why God stuck with us.

To love or not to love - that should have been the question for Him too. Because He had a choice. Because He chose us, and we messed up. 

What is man that You are mindful of him,
the son of man that You care for him? 

Psalm 8:4, New International Version

Why do you bother with us?
Why take a second look our way?  

Psalm 8:4, The Message

I like the Psalms. I think they're very realistic. Those were good questions, don't you think?

I look around and I see the frailty of man. Four people have told me I'm a cynical person. What is cynical? My English teacher answered, "As if having lost all hope in mankind."

Someone asked me what I would do to save the world, and I answered: "The world cannot be saved."

When I said that, I suppose I was telling God that He was a fool to bother with us. In an age where couples split when they think they don't love each other anymore, or when the other messes up, I suppose I did think He was a fool.

I told Grandma EP yesterday, and she said, "You should've said, 'the world is already saved'." 

When she said that, it was like God saying, "Yeah, I'm a fool, the greatest fool that ever lived. But I stuck with My decision to hold onto mankind, and now you're stuck with Me."

I continue to observe men and women around me fall everyday. Many times, I am one of them.

But the bottom-line is:

When all else falls away,
there is One who would rather be a fool,
than to let me go.
And it ain't a fool's dream to think that.

one thing.

One thing I miss about Camp Cameron is not having to decide between a short nap and completing chores.

I miss compulsory siesta.

Ah.

justice, a promise of unreality to the poor.

 

Sometimes I forget why I chose to be where I am.

Things like this help me remember.

my cup of water.

I came back to the table at 8pm and saw an ant floating about inside.

I came back to the table at 9.27pm and saw a winged insect floating about inside.

Why can’t insects respect my private space!

Bah!

please support my movie.

I wrote the script for this movie and posted it on my blog some time ago. I deleted it because someone said it might infringe some copyright of either the Iron Man or Ip Man enterprise. But lo and behold, a well-known director, Wilson Favreau, discovered it just before it was taken down and decided to make a movie out of it.

 

 

No royalty for my hard work (so don’t ask me to belanja), but I was awarded a small role in the movie. If you watch carefully, you’ll see me walking past Ipron Man in one of the fighting scenes. The scene was getting a bit too stagnant, you see.

Also, this picture was taken off Facebook.

Ah, news spreads fast.

oklah.

oklah. i’ll go improve my english la. (no irony intended by the manglish declaration of improvement of english)

oklah. i’ll watch english shows on tv the entire month of june la.

oklah. i’ll read like mad and widen my narrow vocabulary la.

oklah.

am now rational enough.

to post something not defamatory or over-sarcastic.

 

was about to jump into the car in disillusionment and drive home to malacca. then i remembered that…

 

i still have to wash the bathroom.

 

and the kids are still waiting for me on sunday.

 

and i have an administrative law lecture on tuesday.

 

and if i go home now, why on earth did i pack like a madwoman for camp cam?

 

haven’t recovered enough to write with proper punctuation though.

 

today was almost perfect, until i was slapped in the face, then today became not perfect at all. anyway. since i’m really trying to honour donovan’s heartfelt desire that i be less of a trouble magnet now that i’m 22, i shall refrain from getting myself into yet another unnecessary crisis, and not blog about it (explicitly).

 

anyway.

paiseh so small.

-taken from ILBS website-

this was question 4 in our land law exam today:

Assume that you are a legal practitioner specialising in land matters. Kim, a client, came to tell you the following with the intention to obtain legal advice from you.

“This Year of the Tiger is definitely not promising for me.

I missed a step in front of my house and fell heavily breaking two of my front teeth on the first day of Chinese New Year; A lizard fell right onto and scratched my face when i opened the top kitchen cabinet on the second day of Chinese New Year; I accidentally stepped on a toad in my garden on the third day of Chinese New Year… You see almost everyday up to the fifteenth day of the Chinese New Year, something unpleasant happened to me… Now is almost two months past Chinese New Year, just as I thought I was spared the rest of the year, there came a worrying news. The buyer of my land rang me up this morning demanding the return of the sale money, unless I immediately remove something, he said ‘Registrar’s caveat’, from the title. But I have already spent all the money on Chinese New Year. What is a Registrar’s caveat? How does it affect the sale of my land? How can I remove it? Will I succeed? Can I ask the buyer to take steps to remove it instead? Will the buyer succeed?"

As you can see, only the last paragraph is relevant to Land Law. (eh I’m typing with proper capitalization and all d, I’m cured!)

 

This…

 

…is so Dr. Yong. Ahaha!

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22/04 | Constitutional Law
27/04 | Criminal Law
30/04 | Land Law
06/05 | Administrative Law

25/04 | Sunday School
07-09/05 | PKV's Committee Planning Retreat (CPR)
10-29/05 | Camp Cameron (ya, I know gila panjang)
30/05 | Sunday School (cuddly things!) + HOME! (two good stuff in a day =D)
14-17/06 | Combined Youth Camp with Ampang & Melawati (I'll be a facilitator)

19/06 | MGC Youth’s BBQ Nite (sausagesnuggetssausagesnuggets)
21/06 | Lin's birthday!
10/07 | Copa Iba 201-- Wait. Why is this even here?
17/07 | PKV's study trip *ahem* to MPO

slapped in the face.

they said i made a number of grammar mistakes.

me: i created a blog called ‘i am not lame’

 

Amreeta

I’ll create one called ‘I beg to differ’.

me, the bubble.

22/04 | Constitutional Law
27/04 | Criminal Law
30/04 | Land Law
06/05 | Administrative Law


Lain-lain (and the main reason why I don't take special semesters):


25/04 | Sunday School (Clarence didn’t forget me! Elliot sat on my lap. Hee.)
01/05 | PJGH's Family Day (wonder what a family day's like without my family)
07-09/05 | PKV's Committee Planning Retreat (CPR)
10-29/05 | Camp Cameron (ya, I know gila panjang)
30/05 | Sunday School (cuddly things!) + HOME! (two good stuff in a day =D)
14-17/06 | Combined Youth Camp with Ampang & Melawati (I'll be a facilitator)
19/06 | MGC Youth's BBQ Nite (sausagesnuggetsausagesnuggetsausagesnuggets)
21/06 | Lin's birthday!
10/07 | Copa Iba 201-- Wait. Why is this even here?
17/07 | PKV's study trip *ahem* to MPO

They postponed Family Day to 08/05. Which is right smack in the middle of CPR. So I can’t go. T_T And I probably can’t go for the Family Camp next year too, cuz I’ll be doing my attachment. T_T The year after that I’ll have graduated. T_T

 

Yeahhh. My Sunday was spent partially sad. But then another part of Sunday was spent happy because I got to be around the cuddly kids again.

 

It was a very emo Sunday School day.

 

 

 

 

One little girl (for the purpose of this blog I shall name her Anna) started crying when she got picked to recite the memory verse, because she felt she couldn’t do it. I didn’t know what to do.

 

Should I help June carry her up? Cuz Anna sure wasn’t being very cooperative.

Should I say something? Cuz I sure didn’t know what to say.

Should I go comfort Anna? Cuz I sure wasn’t very good with kids, and I sure was very afraid of rejection.

Should I stand up? Cuz I sure didn’t know what else to do.

 

Loser-ish much.

 

June didn’t panic, didn’t yell, didn’t chide. She simply picked the little girl up and held her in her arms, then she said:

 

“You know what? Anna doesn’t need to cry, because she’s a smart little girl.”

 

That part of Sunday stayed with me for a long time.

 

And I told myself:

“You know what? Tse Hwei doesn’t need to be afraid, because she can learn.”

 

I enjoy being with the kids, but most of all, I enjoy watching June and Mavis and knowing that there is so much I can and will learn.

 

clarence reminds me of shannon. ahaha.

 

You know what?

 

I’m at the time of my life where I can still be better than what I am now, and I shall give myself something to smile at when I graduate in 2012.

 

A better and improved me. =)

 

I wonder if Shu Lynn in Malacca’s Children’s Hour feels the same way. =D

 

 

P/S: June and Mavis are the teachers for the 5-6 (-year-old) Class. Ching Sze recently became my fellow assistant. ^_^

P/S2: I actually wanted to blog about something else, hence the title that doesn’t quite match the content. Ahaha. Anyway, I miss… again, complete the sentence. ^_^

we officially have four parking units for four cars.

And we decided to put up a schedule to be a little more systematic.

 

We managed to rent three additional parking units besides our own:

Q61, assigned to Q-12-B and right outside,

Q80, further down,

Q38, further up,

Q142, furthest and awfully near the condo’s exit.

 

After much brain-storming, we came up with this masterpiece: